In the past I have been all about being thin and looking good. This is still something that I still plays a role in my life but it is not the essence to it. I now know that its about being whole and I am accomplishing this through God. I will accomplish my goals through him and only him. Here is a quote given to me by a nun when I was in Italy that I abide to "May your faith always be constant source of strength! In the End He is the only thing that really matters."
Fiber one bar
1 roll of mexican candy
I know I know…I stopped blogging again. My mind has been so occupied by other things that I haven’t been paying attention…bad new, I gained 5 pounds, so instead of loosing weight since the start of this blog I have gained, but I am not discouraged because that was the whole purpose of my blog, to show my ups and downs and most importantly that besides all that, my successes. Anyway so I will try posting again…in reconciliation of this blog.
So I haven’t been on in a while… and a lot of things have changed since then. Let me recap: After I was vegan I went raw during spring break and gave up coffee. Then that last friday of spring break I decided that limiting my diet of all kinds of foods…even “bad foods” is not okay. My goal is not just about being physically healthy, but also mentally healthy and for me to go to such extreme diets was not mentally healthy. My goal is to be healthy, less anxious and just an over all better person. Because of my past psychological path, food is a touchy subject but rather then hating it and limiting myself from things, I need to learn how to love it. With that said, I want to balance my meals and not go over board with things and be content and happy while doing the things that I set out to myself.
Indeed I am on day 32! Not eating meet for straight 32 days. I will admit, although I have been vegan for most of it, I have had some eggs and maybe tried some cheese. My vegan/ weight loss diet has not been strict at all. In fact, I think I might have gained a little bit of weight.
It is 11 o-clock in the morning and I already have had a lot of food. This would make today I failure. But no, I will not think that way. Yes I had a lot of food; basically binging, but even though I binged today, I am just going to eat normal for the rest of the day.
I must fight!